Chapter 1~
See, the last few months have been hard for me. Really hard. I don't want to go into specifics but let's just say this: I was not seeing a light at the end of the tunnel. And I wanted out. Not like I wanted life to end, but I just didn't want to be me anymore. In fact, I didn't even know who me was.
Somewhere between the cleaning and coffee, laundry and lunches, diapers, dinners and dishes, I WAS LOST... The life that I had prayed for ~ EVERYTHING I had asked of God, a wonderful husband, healthy children, a beautiful home, I was given. And yet I still wasn't satisfied. HOPELESSNESS gripped me. I was alone, afraid, and LOST. If I couldn't be happy with THIS life, how could I EVER be happy?
Chapter 2~
Fast forward a few months... I still had the same feelings. I hid them well in public, smiled at church, tried to hold it together... But I still felt alone. It had been a LONG time since I had prayed and HEARD Him... Been in devotion and felt Him move me. But in this moment, while reading scripture, He spoke, right to me ~ through His word.
"I pray that you may be active in sharing your faith, so that you will have a full understanding of every good thing we have in Christ."
Philemon 1:6
A dear friend had introduced me to the blogging world right around the same time I was beginning to unravel. I began following (or more like blog~stalking) some amazing women. They weren't claiming to be perfect, to have it all together, to be iconic. But just the opposite ~ they were real, organic. Living through their trials and tribulations and finding a peace that sustained them. They had something I had been lacking. FAITH.
And they were sharing their faith, and through that understanding the good things they had through Him.
Chapter 3~
I am growing slowly growing in faith... Continually making a conscious decision to choose to look to His Word for guidance and embracing His TRUTH over Satan's lies. He is giving me my portion day by day, and I am receiving just Enough Faith For Today.
so happy to be a part of this. in faith, danielle
ReplyDeletewow, beautiful.
ReplyDeletethank you danielle for sharing this,
and kim... your words about every thing happens for a reason, every blog visited for a purpose... that is never more true than in this very instance.
i'm now your newest follower! can't wait to read more!
with love,
allie
http://amaryllistruth.com
beautiful, so living in this place with you and seeking His face in the journey.
ReplyDeletemay He grant you peace in wisdom.
so lovely.
Wow, isn't this a surprise! You didn't say anything. It's beautiful!
ReplyDeletelove your blog and your heart! can't wait to get to know you more :)
ReplyDeleteamen. you are beautiful. welcome to blogging! xo
ReplyDeletewelcome to the blog world [found you through jami]. i am *totally* coming out of the same dark place. i'd been doing so well in my walk and living by faith, but little by little i allowed the lies to echo louder and longer than the Truth. it's dangerous and oh my goodness, you completely feel lost, hopeless [everything you described]. thank you for being open and sharing with your newest and closest friends ;) can't wait to read more of the journey, into chapter four!
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